Hunter Boy

Hunter is burning up right now with a fever. I think he over did it today. With fighting me, clawing at my neck, face and whatever else he could get, when i give him his medicine. Then with throwing a bowl of oatmeal on the floor and it went all over the carpet as well as broke the glass bowl. He tuckered out about 11 this morning so it was time for more medicine and a nap. He must have felt really good when he woke up because as I was folding laundry, he opened the fridge and threw 3 dozen eggs on the floor. SO while i was mopping that up (the kitchen was overdue for a mopping anyway) he went and got into the laundry i had just folded and had fun with that. He wanted OUT so we went to arctic cirlce (this time with cash!) and he played a little bit. Then we had to go home to change his pants, feed Brooke and then off to wal mart so i could get some deodarant! Now we are home and he is just so hot and sooo tired!
This is really sad because he is usually a ball of energy and he is so lathargic! I just gave him some more medicine and the acetaminfin will kick in soon! For now we are snuggling watching milo and otis for the 56th time today! And I still have laundry that was once folded piled in baskets! i just cant tackle that again right now. I too am exhausted and i hate folding laundry so it took alot to finish that task up today, only to have it all over the room. Yes, that is when the tears came today!
I wont be here when my poor husband gets home. Well physically i will, but i am not sure about mentally. I dont mean to complain and whine and be a wimp. But this single mother thing is just not for me.

Terrible, horrible, no good, very bad couple of days!

So all was well until we woke up to Monday. I have a tooth that has absessed and so I woke up and it looked like i had bells palsy, that side of my mouth wouldn't smile and it hurt too. For some reason Gookie was crying alot on this day. After the naps I thought i would take us to arctic cirlce for dinner because they have a great play place for Hunter. Hunter loves to play and be outside but it is very hard to chase after him with Gookie. So the park is hard and going outsidem, it's like he all of a sudden realized the road is right there and is testing his limits there. Too scary to deal with right now. So we go to arctic circle and Hunter runs saying "play..play" and he is so happy. I order something for us to share and my card is denied! So i have to get Hunter to the truck and he is kicking and screaming because he is expecting to play because i said he could. I go to the bank and try the ATM, denied. So i call the bank (at this point both kids are crying) and our card was turned off because we were over drawn too long. Now i only include this embarassing part because I know many of you know this horrible, embarassing feeling. You know how it is to struggle, do your best and well, money sucks. So after this i drive home with sad kiddos. I run out to the mailbox and receive an invitation to go to cousins first b-day party that had started a half hour before and in Shelley. We would all love the company but alas, both cars have empty tanks and well my card doesnt work, the bank is closed so we cant go. I try making dinner and Gookie is just screaming, she wont eat she is just too tired. Soon I join the kids with tears of my own because I know Brad isnt coming home to help me out. FINALLY 9 pm comes and both kids go to bed. I planned on cleaning and folding laundry but I am so exhausted i just veg on the couch. Crap, crap, crappy day.

Tuesday I wake up and i am in so much pain from my !@#&*! mouth I call Brad just crying (poor man, i dont know what i expected him to do!) My wonderful Mother in law comes to my rescue and i go to the dentist. I have to get a root canal $$$$$. They give me a shot and the worst part of the whole ordeal is that he (if you are squeemish dont read) squeezes my absess and it hurts SOOOO BAD!! they leave me to sit and let the numbing begin and this lady comes to talk about our payment options. I am just shaking in pain and on the verge of just crying to her. I mean it hurt! I get all numb and they do the root canal. I get home and poor Gookie was crying for Tammy. She didnt sleep the whole time like i had hoped. I tried pumping a bottle before i left but the suction wasnt happening and the pump wasnt doing anything. Poor Tammy! Of course she is too nice to say that it was that bad, that is never a fun position to be in, to be left with a breastfeeding baby and you cant help them out. THANK YOU MOM! So i feed the kids and load them up in the car and we are off to pick up Brad. It is an hour drive. Brad get;s in the car and we start driving, Brooke does NOT want to be in her seat anymore. She is crying and it is just crappy. Poor Brad was hoping for this warm welcome (we were excited to see him of course) and Brooke is crying and Hunter is acting up etc etc. We finally make it home though and the kids and i are in bed by 10pm. Welcome home Brad, goodnight. Hunter woke up at 3 am crying and then sleeps in between us but horizantally pushing us off the bed.

Wedneday we take Hunter to the hospital for his surgery. We are waiting for them to take him back and we hear the 2 previous tonsil surgery kids just SCREAMING! that get's me scared for what we have to look forward to. Hunter did okay. He was very restless yesterday and pretty much still out of it. I mean he was okay to be in bed all day which would otherwise be impossible. We watched Robin Hood about 30 times, Sword in the stone 12 etc. I am so glad that they kept him over night to monitor everything and i had peace of mind. brad stayed the night with him and Brooke and i came home. This morning he wanted out of that bed! they took out his i.v.'s and Brad got him dressed and seriously he RAN out into the hall ready to go before we were. The worst part is giving him medicine!!! But Brad has been the one to do that. So this evening we take Brad back and as soon as we drop him off Hunter is just crying for his daddy. Truly heartbreaking. Gookie woke up when the car stopped (i had just fed her, i knew she wasnt hungry) and for the first 20 miles i had crying kids and i was cursing Brad's name. Then the sun was setting and the scenery was just beautiful! the beautiful wheat fields and farmhouses, just gorgeous drive. Oh and it really helped that both kids were asleep at this time. We get home and again, both kids are crying and it is time for hunter's medicine and it is the first time i have to do it. He claws at my face and rips out my earring! At this point i am crying along with him. It's just so sad to see your baby like this and well, it hurt too! I put him to bed and he has woken up twice since. The last time was while i was typing this. Time for more lortab. He had this glossy eyed look and was just screaming "NO MAMA NO!!" Breaks my heart to have to wrestle him down, to give him the meds. I know it will take the pain away, he knows it tastes yucky and hurts to swallow. I was crying and begging for him to take it, praying that he would. He spits most of it back up but he got some down and ran to my bed. He is on Brad's side crying for "Daddy". He settled down and i brought him some ice cream mixed with 7-up. I have to keep him hydrated but he is just not drinking. It's just really hard.

I miss Brad and i am so thankful that he came home for this and for all of his help. I am hoping tomorrow will be better. It is hard to be alone for so long anyway, but especially add a tonsil surgery on top of that and it is just miserable. When Hunter is glassy eyed NOTHING makes him happy because well, he's drugged and hurting. At the hospital he pitched a fit because the housekeeping lady took the garbage out! this is what i am dealing with. My poor baby! I think this is the hardest thing i have had to deal with since being a mom, which is nothing compared to what others have dealt with. So i guess i am just a wimp. I am trying to just "deal with it" because what else can i do? AHH! SERENITY NOW!

I Survived

I am very impressed that I got all three of us ready and to church on time! Hunter had a little more energy than he usually does during sacrament meeting but it was just fine. At one point Brooke did need to eat so i just took both kids with me to the mother's lounge. On the way back to the chapel I ran into a friend who took Brooke for me for the last little bit. The funniest part was during the sacrament, and so all is quiet except for Hunter who is laying by my feet. And in a really loud voice he says "hola, Hola, HOLAAAA!" I thought it was really funny so i start laughing and the people infron of me and behind me do too. Afterwards a friend came up to me and said "i didnt know we had spanish speakers in our ward" I told her it was the gift of tongues.

When we got home from church i was exhausted. We all took naps at the same time. Oohdalalee! (sorry, Hunter's new kick is robin hood everyday!)Then Brad called saying we could come up for a visit. Not that kind of visit. He isnt in prison and the kids came too!

So I loaded up the kids in our tiny car because it get's better gas mileage and we drove all the way to Victor Idaho. The most beautiful drive. He is at a beautiful camp/ work ranch. Brad was soo excited to see Hunter. Brooke was asleep at first so he didnt want to disturb her and i am just chopped liver next to Hunter.Although i did get a kiss in there somewhere. I know he misses me, and Iknow that it is hard not to see his kids.

I was able to meet some of the boys they are working with. I guess earlier that day one boy punched another boy out, but that has been the only outburst they have had. I asked one boy what he thought of Idaho, being from inner city Chicago and all. He told me that this was his second year and that he looks forward to coming and that it was very different, but good.
When we got home both kiddos went to bed, and i went to close the curtains and the biggest hobo spider i have EVER seen came out of my window sill! I hate these spiders because they attack and are so poisonous and just ugly. I had just sprayed last week and now i am all paranoid. i wont put Gookie on the floor for a while.

Today we went to the hospital to get things ready for Hunter to have his tonsils taken out on Wednesday. They didnt have him on the schedule so i have to call tomorrow to find out what time that is going to happen.

I think today has been the hardest day yet. I am just tired, i have dishes to do and i am just tired. And i miss my husband. I think this evening we will go to the "wee" so Hunter can play. He wont be in the mood after his tonsils are taken out.

I have this love for wheat fields. I think they are beautiful and I had some wheat themes in our wedding reception. So when we moved into this house and behind our yard was a wheat field, I of course wanted our family pictures taken in the wheat. We first did this when Hunter was like 3 months old. And so of course we had to do it for our family of 4 now. A friend of mine offered to take them in exchange for watching her son and so I of course took her up on the offer. The pictures turned out great and she put a few of them on her blog. And by the way, what we wore was all based on Brooke's dress. The fun having a girl brings! She has this really cute dress and so i just picked our outfits for us to go with hers.

Thanks to my sister and brother in law, Jaime and Dave, the kids and i got out of the house today! We met them in I.F. and we went out to dinner. It was good company and a good time. Thanks Guys, I had fun.

Tomorrow I tackle sacrament meeting on my own, outnumbered two kids to just me. Hunter is actually very good in sacrament meeting, its just being on my own. if anything were to happen i always have Bradley there. What if Brooke has a blow out and needs her diaper changed, or hunter get's hurt and needs to go out etc etc. I am sure it will be just fine, its just my first time on my own in church with just me. After that Hunter goes to nursery anyway and he loves it. I am always excited when i can go to relief society every other week. (our calling is in the library every other week)So i am all anxious to be with friends and fellow moms for relief society, but i havent been able to get my cup filled because i am always in the mother's lounge. However, there was some great company there last week.

I knew i shouldnt have had dr. pepper at dinner. That is why i am still awake! argh. But i do so love the nectar from the Dr. P.

This and that

As mentioned my parents have been here this week and they just left. So i am a mess.

Brad left on Monday for Chicago. He has gone with the social work program and this will be such an amazing experience for him, so far it has been already. They go to Chicago for a week, meet with some inner city youth and then bring them back here to a ranch in Victor Idaho. So he will be gone all of next week to. So since Brad has left, I havent had to be alone thanks to the timing of Dad's skin cancer needing to be removed. I so appreciate them coming and the time we had together. I hope they enjoyed their stay.

My dad took Hunter to the John Deer place and they looked at the tracters and then went to arctic circle for ice cream. There's just nothing like having your parents around and adoring your children. Gookie is really talking now and she would just talk and talk, smile and laugh for them. And Hunter would play, hug them, snuggle with them and they would give him kisses. They go to the dr. on monday and will find out more about what dad's status is. We are all hoping the best and i know that they will be back on their way to Africa to finish their mission soon.

Yesterday I took the kiddos to th e dr. for a checkup. Everything is fine except Hunter snores in his sleep and sometimes stops breathing a bit. So i knew that that was a red flag because my niece Hollie did the same thing and had to have her tonsils and adnoids out. So yesterday the dr. looked in Hunter's throat and referred us to the Ears, Nose and throat dr. We went today and we had to wait FOREVER! Long story short, Hunter is having surgery next wednesday to have his tonsils and adnoids removed. They dont like to do it this young UNLESS they snore in their sleep and have apnea, whish he does. The dr. said Hunter's tonsils were very large. This was the only time they could schedule it and brad will be away. I guess the recovery process will be difficult since Hunter has never had a sore throat and will want to drink, but it will be so painful to swallow. My job as Momma is to make sure he stays hydrated. He will be there over night to make sure all is well and to have an i.v. to hydrate him. i am glad that he will be there over night. I am hoping that Mom and Pappy can come back for that, but i know they can only do what they can do, and that very well may have been this visit. Which was such a wonderful visit!

Grammie and Papa

My Parents had to come home from their mission because Pappy had skin cancer. So they flew into Salt Lake last week and Dad has had it removed on monday. Today they came here to visit us and to meet Brooke for the first time! Before they got here Gookie was soo tired but wouldnt fall asleep. about 10 minutes later they walked in the door and Gookie fell asleep in Grammie's arms. So cute.
Hunter is my dad's little shadow. My dad was laying on the couch and Hunter climbed up there trying to lay just like Papa. They will be here for a couple of days and i am so glad.
tomorrow Brad leaves for Chicago and he will be gone for two weeks! He is going with the social work program and this will be such a great experience for him. I am glad that mom and dad are here this week to keep me company.
Today brooke was sucking her fingers just like i used to. the same hand and the same fingers! so of course i had to take a picture!

What's up

Well Let's see. Last week i went to Rigby Lake with Auntie Sam and Uncle Yak whose real name is Zak but that is what Hunter calls him. Brad was way to tired to go as he is still working at 4 am. So i am thankful for Zak and Sam who are willing to play and pretty much loving Hunter as their own. I had ran out of a swim diaper and so Hunter was saggy baggy because he had a normal diaper. In these pictures he looks just like his dad!





I am loving the lazy summer days. We will pick rasberries in the evening and sit on the porch while Hunter plays and plays. During the day the kids and i just hang out, run errands and take naps. It is sooo nice that Hunter and Gookie nap at the same time in the afternoon. So i can get things done, Brad will come home and take a nap at that time too.

Gookie is loving tummy time. She is lifting her head really well because usually she is just watching Hunter. She makes me laugh. She makes the funniest faces and just smiles all the time.

Hunter continues to be Mr. Personality and he too makes me laugh. He is talking more and more and is doing 2-4 word utterances (sentences., Yesterday he said "here you go Daddy" as he gave something to Brad. Of course some things we dont understand but i think it is because he doesnt know how to say it yet. Today his friend Adney came to play and they had so much fun playing with trucks and playing outside.

My Dad has skin cancer and they had to come home to have it removed. They are in Utah and the surgery was actually yesterday. They are recovering at my brother's house in Orem and Dad has a checkup in 2 weeks. The timing is actually perfect because Brad will be gone for 2 weeks starting next Monday. SO i hope i can go and crash at my brother's house with my kids so that i can be with my parents and that they can meet Brooke.

Here are some picture of my cute kiddos.